For better or worse, you got a completely different mother than your older brother did. I am definitely more assured of myself and abilities as a mother. There are some things that I am better at my second go around. There are also things I have dropped the ball on, been more impatient about, and I haven’t always given you the time you needed or deserved. No matter what happens in this beautiful life, I know without a doubt that I am the luckiest woman on this earth because I was blessed with you!
I was more confident about labor and delivery going through it once already. You proved to be stubborn and needed help arriving! What we didn’t plan for after 17 hours of labor was for your heart to stop because a reaction to the medicine used to induce labor. After almost receiving an emergency c-section, we labored naturally for 7 more hours before you arrived… which definitely wasn’t in my birth plan!
Even though you had the scariest entrance out of all 3 of my deliveries, I never felt so fulfilled and happy the moment I held you. When I held your older brother for the first time, I of course felt happy, but also scared and anxious. He had different complications that you and was taken right away from me to get tests run. I was also insecure about being a mother and scared that I wasn’t going to be able to take care of this new little baby. But with YOU my little cub, I immediately scooped you up and held you. For a straight hour, we just hugged, cuddled, and bonded. Right away, I knew you and you knew me. We were all that each other needed and I was 100% confident as a mother.
As we celebrate you turning 2, I am looking back through photos and realize you don’t have a thousand pictures and videos taken like your brother did. You do however have more family photos surrounded by everyone who loves you the most in this entire world. You are wearing hand-me-down clothes but you have more toys to play with than your brother ever did at your age. You are moving through stages so quickly and I wish I could stop time!
I promise to love you unconditionally and be the best mother I can be to you and your brothers. I promise to carve out time for JUST YOU my middle love bug to give you special bonding time like we had when you arrived into this world. I love you with all my heart!
I’d love to hear from you readers! What changed for you from baby #1 to baby #2? Write in the comment section below,